Yesterday I was scared. I wasn't ready to have a second baby and I certainly felt like I needed the next three weeks to get the house tidy, clean, take care of things and generally be baby-free. The idea of two children was terrifying and I was afraid I would make Sebastian so mad at me for not being able to give him the same amount of attention as he gets now.
Last night I had a dream about Kaelyn. The only part of the dream I remember is that I was holding her in my arms. I did a 180 overnight (literally). Today I woke up wanting to meet her. I am no longer scared about the idea of two children and I know that I can handle the sleepless nights and the energetic three year old. At this point I just want to have her now. I don't think I will be going into labor in the next two weeks, but now I am very excited about how short I have to wait. My due date is less than 3 weeks away now, and I am feeling great, both emotionally and physically. The house is ready, I am ready, and hopefully Matthew and Sebastian are ready as well.