Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Why I Don't Give Up

Never, never, never give up. ~Winston Churchill
Do you know how easy it is to give up? I just want to not workout and eat pizza and cake and candy. I want all the carbs, all the sugar, and all the lazy TV watching without caring about what it is doing to my body. I don't want to work out. I don't want to make food at home. I don't want to prep and plan and everything that comes with it. But I won't give up. I can't. I have come too far to give up and now, and what would I be teaching my children?

But as for you, be strong and do not slack off, for there shall be a reward for what you do. 2 Cor 15:7
I won't give up, even though there are many times I don't want to continue. The biggest reason I won't give up is that I am seeing results. I am feeling better and I have dropped pants sizes. Maybe that is a superficial reason, but those results mean I am getting healthier and that is my goal. Seeing the scale go down, even though weight is not how I judge myself, is a bonus I didn't think I would get. Because of the Hashimoto's, I wasn't sure I could lose weight, but I seem to be proving myself wrong.

Another reason to stay strong and continue this journey is that I am teaching my children good, healthy habits and how to persevere through hard times. They see me struggle with workouts and they have cheered me on when I am getting worn out. They want me to keep going!  They boost me and I hope that I can be a role model for them in how to live out their lives.

I DO NOT WANT TO DIE. It's simple. The way I was going, I might not have died tomorrow, but I was shortening my lifespan with my unhealthy habits. I want to live a long time so that I can enjoy grandchildren one day, and maybe great-grandchildren. Staying out of a nursing home for as long as possible goes hand in hand with not dying. I want to be healthy, fit, and able to live independently for as long as I can. The best way to do that is to get healthy while I am still young, form good habits, and keep it going life-long.

I am fierce! Although I like how I am looking, I am LOVING how I am feeling. Slaying the workouts makes me feel like a beast, and I love it. I am getting stronger and there is a competitive spirit in me that is coming out. I want to do more reps than I did before and use heavier weights than I did before and not do the modifications like I did before. I want to get better and I am not letting myself stop myself.

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