Friday, October 3, 2008

five years

So much has happened to me in the last five years. When I was 20, I was mostly carefree (except solfege class). I have grown up so much in the last five years. Finishing college is always a defining moments in someone's life. Getting a first job is another. Getting married and having a child change your life even more. I have had a whirlwind of change surround me, and to be honest, I just want the status quo for a few years. I don't want another baby yet, and I don't want to make any major changes. I just want to find myself and figure out where I am in life. For the past year 15 months or so, I have put my son first and for a long time I forgot that I even existed. I finally have been able to join the church choir and I enjoy getting out every week to go back to what I love- making music. I thank my husband for giving me the push to do it. :-D

When I think about the next five years, I would like for them to slow down. I want to enjoy Sebastian's preschool days, before adding another baby to the mix. I want to enjoy the hugs and kisses he gives me and I even want to watch Yo Gabba Gabba with him. I want to watch him grow and explore the world around him. I just want the world to spin a little slower, because he is growing up faster than I want. He is my little boy, and I just want to suck in all the baby left in him and enjoy every day.

Some days test my motherhood, and somehow I have managed to pass. I love being a mother and I wouldn't want to change it for the world, even on the days where I feel like Sebastian is about to blow my head off. Frustrations are short-term, but the love I have for my family is endless.

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